You’ll always be this close from quitting but you didn’t. Remember why you didn’t.
Do you know that I paint skies because it makes my soul at ease?
I hope you feel the same way too
This year felt like I'm changing. My views, my perspective in finding inspiration and the medium for me to convey in. It has been around 4 years since I've dabbled on watercolour painting.And for some odd reason, watercolour isn't exciting to me for now. I've converted into using gouache and acrylic paints.
I remember how confused I felt during this unmotivational phase earlier this year. What usually inspired me were no longer exciting at all. So I did a time off from social media to make lots and lots of experimentation work on my sketchbook called " artblock". (If you have seen my previous blog posts, you'll get to see my previous experiments. Portraits, sunsets, sceneries, plants and so on)
I never have tried gouache nor acrylics before but this experimentation created so much joy. It felt much more alive, more exhilarating. For that I felt that I'm improving in the sense of my creative views.
I'm glad that I am not stubborn towards change. Keeping my mind open to new things, new perspective to convey my creative juices on a canvas.
I may not fully understand what truly an artist thinks. But for now, I think, being an artist is more towards growing self wisdom within my life experience. Not about style or trends and not pretty colours. It is all about pouring my dedication towards art that creates me for who I am.
Be fearless and make dozens of mistakes! I've made more than enough to embarrassing myself.
p.s Drinking wine helps to unwind an uptight mind lol